Body, Mind & Spirits

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Tonight, during my last reading, I became aware of how unusual my life is. It's not like I haven't known that my perceptions were somewhat different than the average person's, but there are some moments in life when your eyes pop wide open, as if you'd been squinting your entire life until that moment...I've had a few moments that have come close - like the time I was at a "Hollywood" party held by a publicist (oh, don't be impressed - I was huddled like a frightened puppy in a corner for most of the night, lol). I was talking for about 45 minutes with a physicist before she finally asked me what I do for a living. Now, I've read about jaw-dropping experiences, but never thought I'd actually live to encounter one myself. Well, I'm here to tell you the act of the jaw falling agape can and does happen! lol She stared at me in disbelief for about 10 seconds before blurting out, "But you're so RATIONAL!!" Of course I couldn't help but laugh.

Follow up:

But I digress...So tonight, while in the midst of a 15 minute reading, my client (who was a wonderful lady) said, "Where are you getting this information?? Did you do a search on me before I called?" lol...It struck me as being so strange because she'd just mentioned that she's spoken to many, many psychics before. But then I realized...this thing I've taken for granted my entire life...this gift...really is something special...It really is something I should be more grateful for..."What???" you say...."But you talk about gratitude and being thankful in your readings all the time!"...Well, this is true...and yet I realized today that I myself haven't been trulygrateful for one of the biggest gifts I've been given - the ability to connect to other beings so deeply...Yes, I've been grateful for the ability to help others - but it wasn't until tonight that I realized I've never been truly grateful for the gifts themselves. I think that this is mainly because humility is so very important to me (and is crucial to keeping oneself open and attuned)...I think some part of me always thought it would be egotistical of me to acknowledge that I have been given "gifts." But now I realize that it's selfish of me not to...

I remember having experiences when I was little that I quickly learned not to share with others...like the man who I said "lived" in the painting of the conquistador in our living room (I think I believed that at age 9 because I'd seen him "walk out" of that wall several times); or the fact that I could literally feel the trees experiencing pain (as if they were screaming) whenever tree trimmers would cut their branches or trunks; or the fact that I could feel that someone was seriously ill before being told. As a child you learn to keep quiet about such things so as to avoid being ostracized and ridiculed. For many years I did my best to shut my abilities off, ignoring them in hopes of just finding a normal life...Truth be told, I was afraid of the experiences I had for a long time. I was afraid of "dead people" saying my name and appearing to me at random because I felt like I had no control over it.

I guess maybe that's why even now - even after I've found a purpose for these abilities - I'm only now realizing the truth of the gifts I've received. As strange as it may sound, it just never really hit me how very unusual it is for someone to be able to hear a name and literally connect to the person, giving you personality traits, emotions, events in their lives, your relationship to them, etc. And it never occurred to me that it's strange to be able to see inside someone's body, viewing illnesses, dysfunctions, etc. Honestly-it never occurred to me. In fact, while I welcome skepticism (being one myself, I believe it's healthy), I've often gotten annoyed with people who've disbelieved or expected me to prove my abilities. It's seemed as ridiculous to me as disbelieving in physical eyesight. But that annoyance has come from my own blindness about the unusual nature of my senses. The fact is that my "normal" is different than most people's. As hard as it may be to believe, I just never realized how different until today.

It was because of a simple comment made by a client that an entirely new perception of my life unfolded for me today. I think that's usually how it works though: the most profound revelations can come from the smallest of creatures, the lightest of breezes and the gentlest touches in our lives. And I wouldn't have it any other way...