Body, Mind & Spirits

This has been an incredibly difficult time for me. It's a time of great loss for me personally and, to be honest, I'm just trying to process it all - to make sense of things. Whenever we encounter a loss in our lives - whether it's by death, breakup or layoff, there's an initial period of shock, which is the kindest part of the grieving process. Once the shock wears off the real healing begins as we try to make sense of the hole that's been left in our lives. We generally begin the process in disbelief before trying to fill the hole in some way. I remember when my dog-children died in the fire, I told literally every person I met what had happened. I walked around in a daze just telling every person I met of my loss, which is very unlike me since I tend to be a very private person. I remember hoping that, if I told enough people what had happened, one of them would shake me and wake me up telling me it was a dream.

Follow up:

I've gotten much better at processing my grief; each loss serves to take a little soft piece inside and turn it into something...different - stronger, for sure, able to withstand deeper cuts and harder impacts...But unfortunately it hasn't gotten any less painful to lose someone. Even knowing what's coming only serves to allow you to brace yourself; it doesn't lessen the impact.

I'll be okay, I know...changed, definitely...another little soft spot inside turned harder, more resilient, but okay nonetheless... Just waiting for the shock to wear off...